I so wanted this to be my victory post...
My exam went awfully. Awfully.
I lost my nerve and from the 3rd exercise on the barre, made silly mistakes, closing the wrong foot behind/infront, panicking and dancing out of time to the music. I can't believe it. I really can't. If I had written this a month ago before I was prepared, I could explain it away, but I knew my stuff, and I didn't perform it even half as well as I know I can. I am so disappointed and I would be surprised if I scrape a pass.
My dance teacher was lovely and mopped up my tears, reassured me that we always think things are worse than they are, and if the worst comes to the worst, I can retake in July, so that's something, but I'm just so sad: it meant so much to me.
It won't stop me dancing, but I need to pick myself up and remind myself that whatever happens, it's a good 12-13 years since I last took an exam and try not to be too hard on myself. Thanks for all your good wishes and support (especially Elise, I'll email you!) and I'll be back dancing (or at least writing about dancing) better than ever when I feel suitably restored (I bounce back pretty easily, so it won't be long!).