Thursday, 29 December 2011

New Beginnings & hope

With the dawn of 2012 rapidly approaching, and a request from my lovely friend Katie to keep her amused whilst she's in sunny Benidorm, what better time than now to blog about fresh starts and new beginnings

I think it's safe to say that 2012 hasn't been my finest year. In fact, I did remark to a friend in November that it has, possibly, been the worst year of my life, but that I had high hopes for 2012. At the time, it was a passing comment, but ironically, minutes after saying this, I found myself in the audience of a play called 'void story' by a company called Forced Entertainment. I say ironically because the play basically took two characters and put them through the worst possible chain of events: it was *so* dreadful it was hilarious (that was kind of the point...) At the end of the play, my friend turned to me wryly and remarked:,'so, you were saying, this year was the worst of your life...?' I honestly can't say I've ever been shot in the stomach by intruders, bitten by giant poisonous insects, or been forced to dance in a never ending dance competition until I can no longer stand before being exterminated by a bomb dropped by a passing drone place, so, by comparison, it's really not been that bad. But, that doesn't mean I don't look forward to the promise of a new year, especially after the difficulties of 2012.

A new year is the perfect time to consider the past and make resolutions for the future. I once made a resolution to learn to ski, but within days of me uttering these words, Natasha Richardson died in a skiing accident and my sister's colleague paralysed himself on the slopes; suddenly it didn't seem like such a good idea. So since then, I've tried not to make too many 'solid' resolutions. People are always talking about having smart targets, but I think I prefer something altogether more wooly; the possibility of what *could* be as opposed to the possibility of falling at the first hurdle.

Someone clever once said "Imagine what you would do if you could not fail. Now go and do it" - I think that's the best thing about new starts. No one expects anything of you. If you want to reinvent yourself and wear new clothes, or adopt a new way of speaking, it's all allowed. The more shocking and exciting the better.

So, my question to you, readers, is this; not "what are your new year's resolutions?" but "what are your hopes for 2012?" - hope is so much more forgiving.
I began this post somewhat somewhat terrified by the weight of expectation, since Katie was expecting witty tales of new beginnings with (and I quote) "comedic interludes!" I'm not sure I've quite delivered what she expected, but I hope it kept you, dear reader, entertained for ooh, at least 5 minutes. And if I haven't, check out my blog roll on the right, there are numerous talented, witty and entertaining bloggers ready to be read! They will not disappoint, I promise!

Friday, 9 December 2011

The Beauty of Sleep

My first week of work in 6 months is over and I can't remember ever being so tired. I have only worked 2.5 days this week (as my normal work pattern will be) but I am soooo tired! I could sleep for a hundred years, just like Aurora in Sleeping Beauty!

I'm so aware of the value of sleep and I'm trying hard to look after myself, so I was in bed at 9 last night and managed to sleep until just before 9am this morning. When you consider that between February and June this year I didn't get more than 1 hour a night, this is a massive improvement. My body (and more importantly, my mind) has learned to switch off and I feel like I'm still catching up with all those lost hours, and sleep feels so restorative.

It also feels like a positive tiredness. I've taken the big step of returning to work and it's been a good week, even though I'm exhausted, it feels like I've really earned my weekend! Which is great as it's my mum (and my sister's - although she's in Cambodia until next Saturday) birthday today so I am going home to celebrate with my family and really looking forward to it!

On a slightly different, but sleep related note, I noticed this poster in my hunt for pictures of sleeping ballerinas. If you live in the UK - The Royal Ballet is doing a live broadcast of their Sleeping Beauty at 7.15pm on Thursday (in fact they're broadcasting around the world too, although obviously at different times), so it would be well worth scoping out your local cinema (or the ROH website: to see if you can get seats! I saw this last year at new year and it was definitely a brilliant production (as you would expect from the Royal Ballet!)